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Everything is Embarrassing - by Tara Monjazeb - Devotions

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The mortifying ordeal of being known

Hi! It’s good to be back, hope you’re all well. My BA Dissertation was due last Monday, but despite all my efforts, I couldn’t get it done in time. I had a two-week extension lined up just in case, so I succumbed to that. There was a moment, at the point of utter exhaustion, where I had to admit to myself that I needed it. My first feeling was not relief, but embarrassment. It felt like I was climbing a hill with sore legs and stopped minutes from the top to rest, feeling the weight of a hundred eyes on me. Everything seems like a performance these days — job applications, dating, finishing…

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