I’m Broke and Friendless and I’ve Wasted My Whole Life

When you live inside of your shame, everything you see is inadequate and embarrassing.

Photo: White Fox/AGF/UIG via Getty Images Hi, Polly, I feel like a ghost. I’m a 35-year-old woman, and I have nothing to show for it. My 20s and early 30s have been a twisting crisscross of moves all over the West Coast, a couple of brief stints abroad, multiple jobs in a mediocre role with no real upward track. I was also the poster child for serial monogamy. My most hopeful and longest lasting relationship (three and a half years, whoopee) ended two years ago. We moved to a new town (my fourth new city), created a home together, and then nose-dived into a traumatic breakup that launched me t

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