How to let go

Writing on Reading Supply.

Your whole life you always had your hand on the brakes. You never let yourself careen freely because you were terrified of the crash. Even when you left school you brought excuses, a return ticket, a safe landing. You had a knack for moderating your thrills. You felt desire before you learned how to properly inhabit yourself. Instead you learned to inhabit other people's desires. You discovered that books, movies, pleasure and pain were tunnels into your body and mind that could take you out of your body and mind. Engulfment as a form of escape. When you held still you were an object that…

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• Anson Yu
• Emily Hu
• Kun Zhu
• Annie Zhou
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• Chloe Yan

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