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how motherhood made me dumb (complimentary)

The governing force of my life was ambition. The most important relationship, the defining romance of my life, was between myself and my own ambition. The relationship, I think, was an abusive one, a sadomaschistic one. My best friend said she uses writing like a cudgel to punish herself (writing being the thing she loves most). We’re so similar I immediately realized I also use the things I love most to punish myself. But I suspect myself of the basest, crassest instincts. In middle school a very smart girl told me I was not a true Greek, I was a Roman (or maybe worse, I thought, a Hun).…

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