flâneur

the little moments are what we live for - by Spencer Chang

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Often I find it exceptionally uncomfortable to inhabit a state of absolutes. Yet in those rare moments when it doesn't feel like that, I feel limitless. Like I am in perfect harmony with the world. This manifests in my difficulty in feeling completely right about something. The little things especially. Where I want to go eat. What I want to go do. I say I want spontaneity but in reality, my moves are controlled by hidden calculations and the obsessive need to

Often I find it exceptionally uncomfortable to inhabit a state of absolutes. Yet in those rare moments when it doesn't feel like that, I feel limitless. Like I am in perfect harmony with the world. This manifests in my difficulty in feeling completely right about something. The little things especially. Where I want to go eat. What I want to go do. I say I want spontaneity but in reality, my moves are controlled by hidden calculations and the obsessive need to prepare the right kind of environment to enjoy spontaneity. Sure, I talk to strangers on my daily walks, and I'll strike up a…

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