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🌱 finding myself again - by Lilian Caylee

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i love you, los angeles, but you're getting me down

It’s easy to lose yourself in Los Angeles. Maybe it’s easy in any new city, the yet undiscovered friendships, the yet unfulfilled possibilities. Maybe it’s just easy. After all, there are false idols everywhere. In my mind, it’s particularly easy in LA. There’s something at once enticing and repulsive about this city— like the haunting fragrance of flowers dying, reminiscent of glory and suggestive of rot, the kind of beauty that shouldn’t be studied too closely. In the sparkling chaos of the past few weeks (decompressing from Burning Man, getting engaged, planning an engagement party for…

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