Bereavement and storytelling - by Nicola T - Surrender Now

Monthly reflections post - October 2021

As my son lay dying, I told myself stories about how he would recover and things would get better again. A rescue helicopter would arrive just in time, or we would get him to an ambulance and the paramedics would save him. In my mind there was no question about his survival — of course he wouldn’t die. My desperate, necessary hope for his recovery qualified the stories I told myself; there would have been no way for me to cope with what was happening, otherwise. Everyone around me was doing exactly what they needed to do to cope with the situation; this was enough to buoy my hope and the…

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