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Letting Go & Moving On - by Nicola T - Surrender Now

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December 2021; trigger warning.

Ten of us were present on the day we buried our son. All of us were broken. Once our community was assembled, it was time to say goodbye and to let go. But I was not ready to let go. It was already uncomfortably hot by mid-morning, and yet his body — and the calico that shrouded it — remained cool to the touch, and stiff. Here was a body that I had only known as gentle, supple, warm. I was not ready to let it go. The grave was small and deep, neatly dug. Looking at it, and the mound of earth piled up beside it, made me feel very depressed. In our gathering, there were two other men who had…

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