On Being a Bug: Why You Feel like the Main Character and like Nothing You Do Matters

The same machine made you the center of the world and convinced you nothing you do matters. From a Sierra porch to a propeller plane over Everest to a mushroom-lit desert, a search for the right size of a self.

On Being a Bug: Why You Feel like the Main Character and like Nothing You Do Matters the case for living at your right size. (part one of two.) Grant David Crawford, PhD May 26, 2026 53 7 17 Share Subscribe hands on the bars There was a stretch of my twenties when I biked twenty miles a day in New York City. I was in grad school, so broke it was a point of pride, paying for bodega coffee in quarters, stitching together three and sometimes four jobs across the city and budgeting down to the subway fare I refused to spend because there was nothing to spend. So I rode. My legs were always pumping

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