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your destiny - by ines - delicate

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These have been some weird days. I got an internship! After a year of searching, I’ve been accepted in a pretty big corporation and I’ve spent the past 3 weeks learning the ropes, waking up at 5:30 AM, feeling all sorts of overwhelmed and unprepared and undeserving, and many other mostly negative emotions. You know me. Work begins and I already feel fifteen steps behind my colleagues. Do you have any idea of how much distance stands in just 15 steps? A long time ago I might've described myself as a fast learner, quick to adapt. My resilience is my biggest weapon…yet…I catch myself writing and rewriting notes until eventually realise it's the forth time I’m writing this down and it still won't stick. I’ve asked the same questions so many times. I make mistakes I know better not to. Am I throwing eggs to a wall and expecting them to stick? I find out those that started with me have been asking for extra work, while I’ve been barely able to complete the standard that’s given. I suspect an

These have been some weird days. I got an internship! After a year of searching, I’ve been accepted in a pretty big corporation and I’ve spent the past 3 weeks learning the ropes, waking up at 5:30 AM, feeling all sorts of overwhelmed and unprepared and undeserving, and many other mostly negative emotions. You know me. Work begins and I already feel fifteen steps behind my colleagues. Do you have any idea of how much distance stands in just 15 steps? A long time ago I might've described myself as a fast learner, quick to adapt. My resilience is my biggest weapon…yet…I catch myself writing…

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