I don't wanna! - by visakan veerasamy - visakanv's essays

me: [to myself] fuck you, i won't do what you tell me!!

Maybe think of this as a “bottle episode”, one where “the artist grumpily steps out of his studio for an angry rant, before sheepishly promising that production has been ongoing and he will have something more substantial to show fairly soon-ish.” I was in the middle of working on one of the dozens of drafts I have for this Substack, when the thought hit me like a brick to the head, “Fuck!! I don’t wanna do this shit!!” Oof. Yikes. Okay. I have to respect that. It also becomes clear to me that my shoulders have been wrenched and knotted for weeks, that I haven’t been sleeping well, I’ve…

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