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The Gun to Your Head

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You have a gun pointed at you, from inside your head. When you lack energy, when failure hurts and risks are scary, and when life is heavy, it’s the gun. Your limbic system controls it. It wants to tell you how worried it is about you, but it has no mouth, only a gun, which it cocks point blank all day, shaking, shooting when you make even the smallest mistake. With each recoil it weeps. It hates hurting you, but it knows the pain you’ve been through because it felt it too, and in moments of desperation it learned that disfiguring you with its bullets has a chance of stopping you from getting hurt even more. It won’t be easy, but you'll go inside and meet it. You will be overwhelmed by its decades of bottled up feelings and nearly destroyed by the rush of memories that haunt it until you're forced to let go. You’ll be strong and enter the terror until you're embracing the part of you who only got to see glimpses of your life, granting them your eyes to see the world is beautiful and it

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