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on becoming a person in San Francisco

I’m often strangely soothed by the idea that I appear to others as a youngish woman of indeterminate age and indeterminate means—hard to place. I really enjoy being anonymous, pseudonymous. I’m secretive to the point where even close friends have, at various points, been confused by my occupation, my location, my marital status, my romantic relationships or lack thereof. The desire to be seen, to be known, of my adolescence has been replaced by a rabid desire to remain hidden. I’m not sure where my intense desire for privacy comes from, but I think it must be partially influenced by the…

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