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when losing someone feels like losing continuity with your own life — Aishwarya Khanduja

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experiencing profound friendship has ruined ordinary friendship for me. i had a friendship so total that while i was grieving my horrendous romantic breakup last year, i realized that i was actually grieving not being able to talk to M about it more than the breakup itself. for so many years, she was the person i wanted to talk to about everything that happened to me. the partners i had during the course of our friendship would often joke that they were third-wheeling us, even though M and i were actually long distance for the majority of our friendship. no matter the distance, she was still the person i was most excited to debrief anything with and the person who knew what was happening throughout my days and who all the characters were and why a small interaction that would mean nothing to someone else meant something enormous to me. i didn’t have to build the context before telling her the story because she had been there for the context too. most importantly, both of us made space

08/12/2026 what happens when someone has witnessed so many versions of you that losing them feels like losing continuity with your own life losing the person who knew you before experiencing profound friendship has ruined ordinary friendship for me. i had a friendship so total that while i was grieving my horrendous romantic breakup last year, i realized that i was actually grieving not being able to talk to M about it more than the breakup itself. for so many years, she was the person i wanted to talk to about everything that happened to me. the partners i had during the course of our…

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