i put my hand on a stove to see if i still bleed

(and nothing hurts anymore i feel kind of free)

(O is my research advisor / manager) O: did you ever figure out the cause of the stroke symptoms? V: not really… my blood sugar and cholesterol are a bit high but not dangerous. it could’ve been caused by holes in my heart? or just general stress O: oh, have you been stressed recently? let me know if there’s anything i can do to help V: yeah i have but it’s unrelated to research, so not really stuff you can help with O: you know i care about you outside of research, right? O: like, we met ten years ago and have only been working together for the last year V: oh V: a little stressed…

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