do I want to "make it" or do I just want to be held

B: It warrants questioning.

This one just kept growing.1 She’s being vulnerable on main again. Inspired by this lovely post. Inside of you there are 2 Madelines B: It warrants questioning. You just. You know that this is something you’re capable of doing. It wouldn’t be the first time. You convinced yourself you were straight. And the best narrative we’ve found for why you did that (barring social acceptance) is wanting to be held. C: but I want to go to SF. I want to do AI research. I deeply want all this. I thought we had established this was irreducible? That even if you stripped everything away this is what I…

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