feeling a bit uggo (ugly) - Troye sivan

I oscillate constantly between feeling like i’m aging in a good way, getting ‘sexier’ with time, and then feeling like gollum’s very close pop-singing relative.

I oscillate constantly between feeling like i’m aging in a good way, getting ‘sexier’ with time, and then feeling like gollum’s very close pop-singing relative. So decrepit, somehow both skinny and fat at the same time. I'm 30. I’ve struggled with my body image for a lot of my life, as i’m sure most people have. I’m historically famously skinny, and i’m not THAT skinny anymore. I’m historically famously twinky (I am still the google search result image for ‘twink’), and i’m not THAT twinky anymore. Oy vey. My natural response to this pressure is two pronged, depending on the day (or hour)…

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