bye, mom - by Aella - Knowingless

I get a text that my mom’s in the ICU.

I get a text that my mom’s in the ICU. I don’t know how bad it is. I already have a flight to see her in four days and I’m not sure it’s worth moving. This isn’t the first time she’s been in the ICU; for years she’s been in and out of hospitals and stuff that used to make us panic now makes us go ‘oh darn, again?’ I ask, How serious is it? The answers are fuzzy, and I am frustrated. I ask my dad to ask the doctor if she thinks family should come. I get the message: “Doc says yes come immediately.” Five hours later, my sister and I are landing in Boise. We stop by my parents’ house to grab…

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