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on being bored | mathu's thoughts

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After 6 weeks of back-to-back traveling, and a 5 year schedule of switching between work and school every 4 months with just a week (or two if i was lucky!) in between, intentionally having no plans for the second half of my summer stuck in suburbia was just what I needed. I drew this in my journal around a year ago, right after I agreed to commit to two back-to-back internships last summer in two different cities. I thought I would regret not maximizing opportunity compared to the "what ifs" with having free time, but found myself feeling like a monkey bouncing around from thing to thing without time to actually think. For the past eight years of my life, I’ve done everything I could to avoid pockets of time without a set purpose attached to it. I realized it’s not the opportunities that are scarce, but it’s your own agency on time. So this summer, I vowed to have no plans at all for a month and a half. Part of me felt insane fomo for not having real summer plans - no place I needed t

Sep 15, 2024 by mathurah on being bored suburb girl summer as an ambition, not an afterthought. After 6 weeks of back-to-back traveling, and a 5 year schedule of switching between work and school every 4 months with just a week (or two if i was lucky!) in between, intentionally having no plans for the second half of my summer stuck in suburbia was just what I needed. I drew this in my journal around a year ago, right after I agreed to commit to two back-to-back internships last summer in two different cities. I thought I would regret not maximizing opportunity compared to the "what ifs" with h

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