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cruel summers - by Jacky (: - Self-Love Rituals

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That’s why it feels like I just live through the rest of the year listlessly, waiting and working toward the summertime so that I can start truly living. Our entire system sets us up for this too. Before we graduate college, we all have summer break – time that’s finally ours, moments untethered to prior commitments we can’t escape. Teenage coming-of-age movies always take place during the summer as well: backyard barbecues, pool parties, sleepovers, and conversations with friends that keep you up all night until dawn. It paints a picture of these magical few months that are always life-changing. But there are downsides to this too. This year, in particular, I’ve especially felt this. I spent most of my fall recruiting for the long-awaited junior-year internship. I dedicated my entire spring to figuring out the logistics of this: booking flights, finding housing, and making all my plans. Now that it’s finally here, the payoff is definitely there. I’ve spent the past few weeks moving in

I feel as listless as this piplup I’ve only ever felt true freedom during the summers. That’s why it feels like I just live through the rest of the year listlessly, waiting and working toward the summertime so that I can start truly living. Our entire system sets us up for this too. Before we graduate college, we all have summer break – time that’s finally ours, moments untethered to prior commitments we can’t escape. Teenage coming-of-age movies always take place during the summer as well: backyard barbecues, pool parties, sleepovers, and conversations with friends that keep you up all…

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