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in/dependence

Alexei Jawlensky, Murnau, 1910 A couple months ago, a friend asked me about being more independent. That’s a loaded topic for me, since historically I haven’t been as independent as I’d like to be. I’ve done things that make me seem independent—leaving college, living alone, traveling alone, working on things by myself—but it always felt like posturing. I don’t know if I really enjoyed those experiences as much as I should have—if I was really present with myself in the time I spent alone. I was a lonely child and even as an adult I was always afraid of real solitude. I’ve never liked being…

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