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My journal: years of depression and self-loathing; learning to accept myself and others; overcoming video game addiction - Alexey Guzey

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I was born in July 1997. I finished high school in June 2014 and started university in September 2014. I was severely depressed for the last two years of high school and for the first year of university and saw a psychiatrist for several months, at some point convincing him to prescribe me antidepressants. Below are my selected journal entries from 2014 to 2017. I was never planning to publish them but decided to do it because I thought that they might be helpful to people who are in a similar position to the one I was in the past. Late December of 2013. “I really should do math olympiad”, – I’m telling myself but continue to dick around, browsing internet and playing StarCraft. Almost at the same time, my therapist writes me that we’ll be unable to meet in few weeks due to his personal business. At this moment something clicked in my head. It became clear to me how pathetic and awful I was, trying to do this olympiad. I recalled how I felt my life had negative value. And most importan

My journal: years of depression and self-loathing; learning to accept myself and others; overcoming video game addiction created: 2020-01-13 ; modified: 2020-01-13 Table of Contents 5 random top posts > Cursed omens of exceptional talent > Low tech stuff I recommend > Why AI experts' jobs are always decades from being automated > Don't believe self-reported data > Tools / Gear I was born in July 1997. I finished high school in June 2014 and started university in September 2014. I was severely depressed for the last two years of high school and for the first year of university and saw a psychia

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