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Hi, here’s April’s first essay and a playlist I was listening to while writing. Hope you enjoy & thanks, as always, for being here. + This morning I wrote in my journal: I probably should cool it with the grand declarations. What if I started this over? But how else am I supposed to show my devotion? I’ve been trying to work through what devotion means because Christian and I, as we’re wont to do, got into a lively theoretical discussion the night before about the difference between worship and devotion. He says: Devotion is about a form of self-making labor—the self is constituted in part as a result of its work toward and for the other. Worship is self-erasing. A sublimation of the self into the other. After we’ve exhausted our thoughts, Christian adds, This is just how I’ve made sense of it. I’m not reading any theory about it. But I will go to bat for my tiny ideas derived from long-form love agonizing. That’s all we have, I say. At this point, I’m only interested in the empirical.

And still devotionals Evana Apr 05, 2024 173 7 62 Share Hi, here’s April’s first essay and a playlist I was listening to while writing. Hope you enjoy & thanks, as always, for being here. + This morning I wrote in my journal: I probably should cool it with the grand declarations. What if I started this over? But how else am I supposed to show my devotion? I’ve been trying to work through what devotion means because Christian and I, as we’re wont to do, got into a lively theoretical discussion the night before about the difference between worship and devotion. He says: Devotion is about a form

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