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I'm at whole foods eating half a plum the math just isn't adding up

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I recently turned 23, and this is the first age I literally did not ever picture myself being. At 14 I could see myself at 18 just entering college. At 18 I pictured myself at 21 getting lit. At 19 I pictured myself at 22 graduating college. But literally nothing in my life went according to that plan — at 17 I wasn’t even planning on going to college, at 19 I dropped out, at 21 I was super sober, and at 22 I’d worked in tech for 3 years. Anyway, sometimes when people age, they think they know more now that they’re older. I have realized, as I’ve aged, that I know nothing at all. I had myself and the world figured out at 16 and it’s been downhill ever since. So instead of the usual “23 things I’ve learned at 23”, here’s some things I’ve been thinking about recently that my past self would likely be better off knowing. You think you know what’s best for you. You’re pretty sure mom and dad don’t but you still wish they did. You hope that your brother and cousin know what’s best for you,

I recently turned 23, and this is the first age I literally did not ever picture myself being. At 14 I could see myself at 18 just entering college. At 18 I pictured myself at 21 getting lit. At 19 I pictured myself at 22 graduating college. But literally nothing in my life went according to that plan — at 17 I wasn’t even planning on going to college, at 19 I dropped out, at 21 I was super sober, and at 22 I’d worked in tech for 3 years. Anyway, sometimes when people age, they think they know more now that they’re older. I have realized, as I’ve aged, that I know nothing at all. I had…

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