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This has been a sharp about-turn for me, even for myself. I remember setting foot in San Francisco in 2011, feeling a sense of belonging for the first time in my life. That feeling was so certain, so absolute. I wanted to spend the rest of my life here, a country whose values align closer to mine than my birth country can probably ever be. I tend to project the future with my current self, failing to realize that while I can make safeguards for external, macro events, it is much harder to do so when the transformation takes place on a much unconscious, deeper level. A lot of who I was, what I was capable of, what used to important to me, what I love, has changed. I think of change as either consciously incremental or dramatic, but sometimes it creeps up incrementally like a stealthy stranger, before it erupts in a way that traumatizes myself more than the people around me. Letting go of what used to be familiar, what used to matter, is a very confusing, terrifying process. Who am I rea

September 14, 2015 I am leaving, because I can on agency and self-love In roughly two days I’ll leave the United States and will probably be unable to return again. This has been a sharp about-turn for me, even for myself. I remember setting foot in San Francisco in 2011, feeling a sense of belonging for the first time in my life. That feeling was so certain, so absolute . I wanted to spend the rest of my life here, a country whose values align closer to mine than my birth country can probably ever be. I tend to project the future with my current self, failing to realize that while I can make

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