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DRMacIver's Notebook: Being a brain at night

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Look, I think we can just take it as read that the slightly traumatised writing will continue for a while. It’s useful for me to write, and it seems to be useful for other people to read, so I’m going to do it. Anyway, I’ve been having panic attacks at night recently. Not every night, but maybe about once a week, and the edge is there on other nights. This sounds more dramatic than it is. They’re not full blown panic attacks. Not really. It’s very easy to stop them, all I have to do is open my eyes and distract myself. It’s not an irrecoverable panic attack, it’s just that I close my eyes, try to sleep, and am filled with a formless dread as if I’m drowning. I think the most likely cause, as well as generally having been in a terrible mood due to general depression and the whole global pandemic thing, is that I’m getting to experience something that I have rarely experienced in my adult life: It’s bedtime and I’m not caffeine withdrawn. I quit coffee about a month ago. As the joke goes

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