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My mind is an Airbnb - Trang Doan's Newsletter

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We were together for 6 months. He was kind, super eye-candied, and rich. He gave me a good kiss goodbye with lots of money when we parted, so I could survive for the next few months. His rejection came in a polite email: Yeah, I got laid off. Now that I’m unemployed, my mind becomes an Airbnb with two pending guests - Anxiety from land of financial-instability, and Uncertainty from land of figuring-out-what’s-next. These uninvited guests are loud and annoying. They yell and chit-chat all day in my mind that I can’t do anything. I figured there are two mental models to approach this: I can try my best to kick them out of the door. This approach sounds stoic. But they’re sly - even when I’m having fun with friends, they’d sneak in from the back door in camouflage. Sometimes in the shape of jealousy over friends’ success, sometimes a flinch for buying a $15 sandwich, and sometimes procrastination. So I can’t push them away, how do I make myself and my guests most comfortable while they’re

We were together for 6 months. He was kind, super eye-candied, and rich. He gave me a good kiss goodbye with lots of money when we parted, so I could survive for the next few months. His rejection came in a polite email: Yeah, I got laid off. Now that I’m unemployed, my mind becomes an Airbnb with two pending guests - Anxiety from land of financial-instability, and Uncertainty from land of figuring-out-what’s-next. These uninvited guests are loud and annoying. They yell and chit-chat all day in my mind that I can’t do anything. I figured there are two mental models to approach this: I…

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