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How They Tried to Kill Me | Online Only | n+1 | Elena Kostyuchenko

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I didn’t want to write this for a long time. I feel disgusted, afraid, ashamed. I can’t write about everything I know because I have to protect the people who’ve saved my life. On February 24, 2022, my country attacked Ukraine.

In 2022, n+1 published four reports (1, 2, 3, 4) from the war in Ukraine by the Russian journalist Elena Kostyuchenko. In the following essay, Kostyuchenko describes—for the first time—why she fled Ukraine and reveals that she was poisoned last fall in Munich. (The essay originally appeared in Russian on Meduza’s website and was translated by Bela Shayevich.) Kostyuchenko’s book I Love Russia, which includes her reporting from Ukraine and elsewhere, is forthcoming this fall from Penguin Press. I didn’t want to write this for a long time. I feel disgusted, afraid, ashamed. I can’t write…

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