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how to change your life, part 2: agnes callard's aspiration

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every writer begins as a poseur ✦ on Kafka, Proust, philosophy, and trying very hard

On Monday I woke up at 5am, wrote from 6–7am, and then headed into work. This isn’t the first time in my life I’ve tried to have a writing schedule like this. Indeed, it often feels as if the last decade of my life was a long, ineffectual struggle between wanting to write and wanting to be peaceful, lazy, leisurely, still. Was it all laziness? Part of it was fear, too: The terrible, lonely fear that, even with a writing schedule in place, I would have nothing to say. How did I get here, to this strange state of discipline and ease, where writing is no longer the thing I aspire to do,…

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