Starting hospice. The end « The Story's Story
I’m entering hospice. It’s time, and realistically past time. The squamous cell carcinoma tumors are growing, and the two doses of spot radiation I got on June 10 and 12 have utterly destroyed whatever quality of life I had. This weekend, a nurse came by and did some planning with Bess and me. Our extensive efforts to find and start another clinical trial have turned out to be futile, and I’ve withdrawn from the next-best potential clinical trial, BGB-A3055 in Dallas, at NEXT Oncology, because there’s no feasible way for me to do it (the people at NEXT, however, are and have been amazing: if you’re looking at clinical trials or live in Dallas, schedule a consult). HonorHealth in Scottsdale, where I live, has a TScan slot, but my physical condition remains terrible for essentially the reasons I’ve written about so extensively that there’s no need to belabor them. My days and nights are filled with unrelenting coughing, hacking, and pain. My whole jaw area is numb, likely from tumor grow
August 4, 2024 By Jake Seliger in cancer Tags: cancer , Essays 64 Comments I’m entering hospice. It’s time, and realistically past time. The squamous cell carcinoma tumors are growing , and the two doses of spot radiation I got on June 10 and 12 have utterly destroyed whatever quality of life I had . This weekend, a nurse came by and did some planning with Bess and me. Our extensive efforts to find and start another clinical trial have turned out to be futile, and I’ve withdrawn from the next-best potential clinical trial, BGB-A3055 in Dallas, at NEXT Oncology, because there’s no feasible way
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