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Some things that have happened - by Siddharth - cybermonk

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The first time I lived here had an edge to it. I was working a job that, well, I thought was beneath me. I had few friends. I hated the area of the city I lived in (I witnessed a fatal stabbing shortly before I moved out). I innocuously got coffee with a girl I had previously dated; a bird had pooped on her jacket, so she asked if she could wash it at my place, and we spent the next few months getting hurt. I eventually failed to perform at my job and decided to quit before I got disciplined—I couldn’t bear to be reminded that I couldn’t do anything right. Part of the reason I failed at my job was that I spent all my time studying esoteric topics in artificial intelligence instead of working. I firmly believed that the only way to escape the pit I had found myself in was through the absolute power granted by a universal, ultimate intelligence. Now I look back on that time and I see the reach for purity and redemption in the midst of suffering, and the limitless curiosity that powered i

the Dawn Redwood… In May, I moved to San Francisco. This was my second time moving to this city. The first time I lived here had an edge to it. I was working a job that, well, I thought was beneath me. I had few friends. I hated the area of the city I lived in (I witnessed a fatal stabbing shortly before I moved out). I innocuously got coffee with a girl I had previously dated; a bird had pooped on her jacket, so she asked if she could wash it at my place, and we spent the next few months getting hurt. I eventually failed to perform at my job and decided to quit before I got disciplined—I…

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