Four or five tangents
I definitely like having learned, because understanding something is wonderful while not understanding hurts and is the worst. But some of my friends seem to actually like learning, to the extent that they would rather do math than play with friends. I've had feelings of guilt and questions of "am I a bad person" because I don't skip with joy when I learn something. But I think I genuinely like physics, even if I don't crave it. *On the other hand, I can crave programming like drugs. Maybe the truth is this: Given that I'm learning anything, I would far prefer to be learning physics, and that's enough to be called love. When I'm studying ODEs my thoughts flicker to physics; when I'm reading about biology, I wish I were doing physics. When, last summer, the experience of reading neurotech papers was terrible and unintelligible, I ran away to do physics, which I found also confusing but less terrible. Aidan recently published his website, "Beatin' Paths", about traveling across Ame
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