how to be lonely - by Claire Wang - cold brew blog

This post is a rough amalgamation of notes app musings over the past few months—it’s interesting to see how my relationship with friendships, loneliness, and confidence has fluctuated in so little time. Read to the end for some life updates or smth! :) The emptiness of a farewell at an airport. Nick’s morning meeting: the idea of a farewell being an exhalation. (all things end) Somehow, it becomes a feeling of calm? When I say goodbye to someone, there’s a feeling of numbness and silence afterward. My stomach drops, and I’m in a state of confusion—the thing that had given me a sort of active purpose has just disappeared. Maybe it is not quite me missing them, but more so an understanding that this excitement is now over. If any of you are chronically online like I am, you might have seen those tiktok/reels that describe the feeling of the post-Facetime or the post-friend-hangout, where you’re half relieved that you’re alone now but suddenly left to deal with the fact that your life no

This post is a rough amalgamation of notes app musings over the past few months—it’s interesting to see how my relationship with friendships, loneliness, and confidence has fluctuated in so little time. Read to the end for some life updates or smth! :) The emptiness of a farewell at an airport. Nick’s morning meeting: the idea of a farewell being an exhalation. (all things end) Somehow, it becomes a feeling of calm? When I say goodbye to someone, there’s a feeling of numbness and silence afterward. My stomach drops, and I’m in a state of confusion—the thing that had given me a sort of active p