a blog is a space for dreaming - by Ava - bookbear express

Very exciting news: for anyone who participated in the matchmaking experiment, your matches will go out tomorrow!! * I woke up angry today. As I got dressed, put on makeup, and took my dog to the park, I tried to puzzle through why. Then I cleared my mind and stayed with the feeling until it shifted, clicked. Turns out that I was mostly frustrated at myself. But as anyone who knows me understands, I find it very easy to forgive myself, so my anger soon dissipated. Something else appeared in its place: a certain vulnerability. That’s something writing this Substack has taught me to do: move through the life cycle of a feeling. My feelings have historically been large and impenetrable, slamming into me like a tide; it’s only after I emerge from the undertow, soaked and choking, that I can enjoy the still water again. Through writing (and living), I’ve learned not so much to surf but to be knocked down more quickly. Instead of spending days consumed by a mood, I spend hours or sometimes m

Very exciting news: for anyone who participated in the matchmaking experiment, your matches will go out tomorrow!! * I woke up angry today. As I got dressed, put on makeup, and took my dog to the park, I tried to puzzle through why. Then I cleared my mind and stayed with the feeling until it shifted, clicked. Turns out that I was mostly frustrated at myself. But as anyone who knows me understands, I find it very easy to forgive myself, so my anger soon dissipated. Something else appeared in its place: a certain vulnerability. That’s something writing this Substack has taught me to do: move thr