i figured out why nothing is ever enough

This is episode TEN of Season One: I’m (not?) The Best, a multi-month deep dive into the ideas of competition, comparison, testing and achievement. It’s 2013 and I’m an up and coming actor in Austin, TX. Having recently starred in three UT film school shorts AND a youtube video that went big time viral called Hell No, I’m feeling pretty damn good about the trajectory of my career. I’d just signed with the best agent in Austin and now it was only a matter of time until - hey what’s this? An email saying I have an audition for the role of Lucas in the hit TV show REVOLUTION filming in Austin aka the big one the one that leads to all the other ones?? Well holy shit. “This is a tough role so the casting director strongly urges you to work with a casting director.” Ooookay, um, what? I mean, I don’t plan on getting a coach - don’t need one - but the fact that they think I need one means this is a BIG deal let’s gooooooo. For the next three days leading up to the audition, my behavior is…str

This is episode TEN of Season One: I’m (not?) The Best, a multi-month deep dive into the ideas of competition, comparison, testing and achievement. It’s 2013 and I’m an up and coming actor in Austin, TX. Having recently starred in three UT film school shorts AND a youtube video that went big time viral called Hell No, I’m feeling pretty damn good about the trajectory of my career. I’d just signed with the best agent in Austin and now it was only a matter of time until - hey what’s this? An email saying I have an audition for the role of Lucas in the hit TV show REVOLUTION filming in Austin aka