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Lol I’m trying to tell you how it feels for me | Harriet Armstrong | Granta

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When I searched my phone for texts I’d sent with ‘lol’ in them, there were thousands. Most of them were just ‘lol’ by itself, or ‘lol ok’, ‘lol no’ or ‘lol hahaha’, and very few of these messages had anything to do with laughter or jokes. ‘For like two years at uni I wrote one shite poem per week lol.’ ‘I’m genuinely so sorry lol I shouldn’t have said anything.’ ‘Lol I was mega lonely hahahaha.’ I realised that I had sent a lot of messages like these while actively crying. A few years ago, crying hard, quite drunk, after a complicated night with my friend A., I sent him a text that said, ‘lmaooo ok I’m on the bus absolutely LOLLING at my bad personality.’ Shortly afterwards I tried to write a story inspired by that moment of absolutely lolling on the bus. ‘The bus was trapped inside the night’s blue walls, the blue walls wet and starless, pressing down upon the roof, pressing the doors in. My love for him felt totally clear and ancient. It felt like the oldest and most sacred thing ins

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