uncertainty is an evocative state - by Nix 🕊

When painting, vacuousness is often necessary for wholeness. Emptiness is as important as filling the canvas. A wide vista of space, to open up to the void and let something true and real pour out. Or to let God rush in. My life is built on extremely long feedback loops. To be sure, they’re of my own choosing. I like to be in it for the long haul. Sometimes this is frustrating. You get stuck treading water for an indeterminate period of time. In writing, at my job, all my pursuits hinge on delayed gratification. This doesn’t mean they’re ill-fitted, just that sometimes it’d be nice to get a quick win, or some signal that what I’m doing is right. Instead I find myself floating adrift in a lovely ocean of unknowing. Staying centered, calm and equanimous when there’s a lot of uncertainty means staying pinned to my values rather than wriggling out of them in impatience. It means: writing and writing, through years of imperceptible improvement. It means digging my heels in and taking a stak

When painting, vacuousness is often necessary for wholeness. Emptiness is as important as filling the canvas. A wide vista of space, to open up to the void and let something true and real pour out. Or to let God rush in. My life is built on extremely long feedback loops. To be sure, they’re of my own choosing. I like to be in it for the long haul. Sometimes this is frustrating. You get stuck treading water for an indeterminate period of time. In writing, at my job, all my pursuits hinge on delayed gratification. This doesn’t mean they’re ill-fitted, just that sometimes it’d be nice to get a qu