avoidance & expression - by Isabel - Mind Mine

It has been interesting watching myself continually avoid things I know I need to do —that I want to do!—which take considerable activation energy to complete. This is nothing new: I’ve written before about how hard things are hard to do, or that flow state is preceded by resistance. But I have always taken pride in my ability to conquer the task, to attack the problem, to get after it—whatever the “it” of the moment is. So: why have I been so avoidant lately? Even though I occasionally succumb to the attention-scattered-nature my generation is notorious for, it’s quite uncharacteristic for me to flat out avoid my most important task for so many days in a row (these days, that task is usually writing 1,000 words). Something feels different this time. This isn’t a lack of discipline or a symptom of scattered focus. It appears as though the nature of the block I’m experiencing has fundamentally shifted. In a fit of further procrastination, I found myself reading this bookbear essay about

It has been interesting watching myself continually avoid things I know I need to do —that I want to do!—which take considerable activation energy to complete. This is nothing new: I’ve written before about how hard things are hard to do, or that flow state is preceded by resistance. But I have always taken pride in my ability to conquer the task, to attack the problem, to get after it—whatever the “it” of the moment is. So: why have I been so avoidant lately? Even though I occasionally succumb to the attention-scattered-nature my generation is notorious for, it’s quite uncharacteristic for me