'I Want Him Back!' - by Heather Havrilesky - Ask Polly

I have been dumped by my live-in boyfriend. I think I know, if you were to reply me, how you would reply me, so perhaps it’s another one of those screaming into the abyss situations, but I don’t care. I’m a successful immigrant living in London. I am proud of how I got to where I am, a combination of supportive but emotionally absent parents, pure stubbornness, people who believe in me, and grind. Not sure if the order is right. I love to love. I love adoring someone, someone adoring me, I love building a couple’s language of shared looks and inner jokes and getting to know how someone acts when they’re stressed. I’m 35. I’ve been in therapy for eight years now, we were in the closing stages just as pandemic hit and I needed it more than ever. With my therapist’s first suggestion then push I started using an SSRI in January to help with my extremely heightened health anxiety. It works and I’m happy I have that as a support system. Through this, my ex was there for me. We met three year

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