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My Birthday Gangbang - by Aella - Knowingless

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"I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear." - Nelson Mandela From the outside, it might seem like I am fearless in my sexual adventures, like I’m a confident slut running wildly from penis to penis. This isn’t true at all. All the risks in my life, all the sexual choices I’ve made that have revoked society’s blessing on me - I’ve done despite experiencing sheer terror. I am not immune to the heavyhanded social narratives that I must be damaging myself somehow, that no man will ever want me, that sluts are deeply bad. Those narratives make me seize with fear. It’s just I figure the fear must be unfounded - when I examine myself, I can’t find any actually bad thing. There is no inherent badness to a penis entering my vagina. So I force my feet to move forward, into the den of forty-two men all jacking off in identical bathrobes, while I’m screaming internally. Yeah, we got

My Birthday Gangbang a slutistical breakdown Aella Mar 01, 2024 ∙ Paid 540 18 51 Share update: this post has been lightly updated since it was originally published "I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear." - Nelson Mandela From the outside, it might seem like I am fearless in my sexual adventures, like I’m a confident slut running wildly from penis to penis. This isn’t true at all. All the best risks I’ve taken my life, all the sexual choices I’ve made that have revoked society

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