when you're in pain - by vincent huang - a slice of my mind

1) many people have said that i’ve been a good influence on them, or a generally pleasant person to be around, or that they’re glad that they know me 2) a couple people have been hurt by our interactions to the point that they never want to talk to me again and sure, these two statements aren’t inherently contradictory, but it still feels strange to me that they’re both true? it makes me wonder - has the life i’ve led been worth it? how can i prevent 2) from happening again? is it actually possible to have 1) without 2) and if so how do i get there? part of the difficulty in separating 1) and 2) is that i don’t really know what people like about me. i used to think it was some form of honesty / perceptiveness / truth, but nowadays i am less sure. being too blunt has gotten me in trouble quite a few times now the closest thing i have to an explanation is this: when i am in pain, i tend to care less about other peoples’ feelings. i think i usually do a good job of acting in a way that is

1) many people have said that i’ve been a good influence on them, or a generally pleasant person to be around, or that they’re glad that they know me 2) a couple people have been hurt by our interactions to the point that they never want to talk to me again and sure, these two statements aren’t inherently contradictory, but it still feels strange to me that they’re both true? it makes me wonder - has the life i’ve led been worth it? how can i prevent 2) from happening again? is it actually possible to have 1) without 2) and if so how do i get there? part of the difficulty in separating 1) and